Drafts

Here I am again, same time of the week, same position, same shitty feeling. And what bothers me is they never seem to notice. I am never invited to any of the weekend plans. I always find myself in the same situation every weekend. Alone in my room, scrolling on social media, watching all my friends hangout without me. And I can’t help myself but to just cry.  But whatever it is I try to ignore the feeling, making up stories in my mind finding excuses that my friends like me

Opinions had dictated my entire life. Even since I was a kid everyone’s opinion mattered. They had a say in what I wore, how I saw myself physically and mentally, what I ate, essentially my whole lifestyle. Whatever I did, every action, sport, things I posted, what I said, they all had a meaning, and a lot of thought went through it. And this is how I saw everyone from my perspective, people judging you, everything mattered, trying to be perfect, because if I didn’t think lik

I’ve had this awesome superpower ever since I was young where I could go into a room and just observing I could read everyone. The real life “Read the room”. Whether I had a friend or just alone, I would listen in and look around figuring out everyone's name, maybe where they are from, if they have friends or not, the popular kids and the weird ones. I saw it all. In my mind they all had pretty similar ways of acting, the popular kids would be loud, wear the same cool trendin